Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Emotional Seesaw

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Remember the first time you've ever wanted something so bad? How did it feel when you finally got it? Wasn't it phenomenal? Whether it's your college crush asking you out inside the library--carrying a bouquet of red roses, no less--or getting a call for your dream job, there's that sudden rush of happiness. Oh JOY! It feels like you can kiss even your enemies, but since you don't want to... you settle for complimenting a stranger for her fabulous shoes.

What about the first time you had to let go, voluntarily or involuntarily, of that very reason that made you happy? Bummer, huh? What about the time you feel like you're getting it back? Yes! Yes! YES! And then things turn anticlimactic?

Some people call it a rollercoaster ride. Usher calls it U Got It Bad. I simply call it riding an emotional seesaw. There are no loops. It's just up and down, up and down, up....and...down... God, I hate feeling that way! I'm 31 years old! It's antediluvian--it should be illegal--and worse, it's coming face to face with the truth that something or someone else has so much control over you.

Today, I'm going to start brainstorming for my applications essay. That should take my mind off things. Or at least, it should steer my head toward a different, more promising direction. God... ♪ I know you're theeeere... ♫ Don't think, for one second, that I'm thinking you can't hear meeee ♫


U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about...

Darn.




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